Well, what a week! When I finally reach my goal of being an author, I'll look back on this week as the one that defined my pathway to authorhood.
The big news of the week is... cue drumroll... I RECEIVED A PUBLISHING OFFER!
Happy days! You can imagine how ecstatic I was when I held that glossy contract in my hands. Unfortunately the celebration was to be short-lived; I discovered that there would be some costs involved. The grand total, the cost of reaching my goal, was £2500. Yes, I was shocked (and slightly upset) as well. However, every cloud has a silver lining.
Far from dwelling on how I would magic up £2500 from thin air (I would not recommend trying that!), I began exploring the self-publishing option. I had been steering clear of self-publishing for the simple reason that I felt I needed the expertise of a publisher or an agent. Now, after careful consideration, it is looking to be a much more attractive proposition: less expense, the chance to design my own cover, and keep more royalties. It sounds like a no-brainer when you think about it. I am still deciding which platform would work best for me and Heartbound, but it is nonetheless a very exciting time.
As well as all of that, I have been in fine writing form this week. Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday were especially productive; on each of these days, I wrote solidly for around 50 minutes to an hour with the only distractions being the fellow early bird students walking past me and one of my lecturers saying "good morning". My word count increased dramatically as a result of my intense focus. Each day, I wrote well over 600 words, which is much higher than the sparse 200-300 words I was struggling to write a couple of weeks ago. And I loved it! Seeing my story beginning to prosper in front of my eyes was (is) such a rush.
Like I said at the start of this post, when I finally achieve my dream and see Heartbound on the bookshelves or on the eReaders, I will look back at this writing week. I'll be able to say "that was my defining moment". It is now only a matter of time, and the fact that an actual publisher was willing to take on my work shows me that I can write, I do have the ability to create great stories. Even though the costs of that offer knocked me back, they also spurred me on.
I'd like to finish this post with a quote from Christopher Reeve. I think it sums up exactly what I've been experiencing:
"So many of our dreams at first seem impossible, then they seem improbable, and then, when we summon the will, they soon become inevitable"
He is right: my dream started as seemingly impossible but it is now an inevitability.
After the disappointment and frustration of last week, this week has been much more productive. I have now started Chapter 2 of my latest manuscript and it appears to be progressing relatively well. Even though my degree is taking up the majority of my time, the sessions I have spent writing this week have been successful.
On average, I wrote around 600 words per hour. As it is most common for me to write on Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays, this added up to around 1200 words in total. My character's journey is starting to take shape; he is already taking those first steps into the unknown, and the lack of confidence that weighed me down last week seems to be nothing more than a blot on the horizon.
Writing for me is what I am best at. I take it very seriously and can become frustrated if my work is not going the way I intended. This week I have managed to regain my rhythm, put the first parts into place and now I am feeling much more confident about my ability. Oh and if you're wondering what the latest is with Heartbound, there will hopefully be some news to bring you very soon (that's all I'm saying!).
Roll on next week!
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This week has been a difficult week for me in terms of writing. So far I have almost finished the first chapter in the opening book of the series I am writing, however it has taken me a lot longer than I had hoped. It seems that the curse of writer's block has struck again.
Writer's block has struck me before. Whilst writing 'Heartbound', I went through a phase of doubting my work and its quality, but that soon passed with perseverance and soon enough, my self-belief returned. This time, however, it appears to be different.
University demands a lot of commitment, especially when you are on a demanding and practical course. I'm not complaining; I enjoy university immensely, even if it can be stressful. The only problem is I do not have as much writing time as I would like. I am often restricted to writing in the hour before my lectures; the rest of my time is either dedicated to practical work or theory.
This week, I have written around 700 words. For me, that's about average; I am capable of writing 700 words in an hour provided I am not distracted (which happens a lot when you work in a busy university building!), but more often than not I write around 300. Hopefully next week will see an improvement and the end of this dreaded writer's block.